“I wait patiently for God to save me;
I depend on him alone.
He alone protects and saves me;
he is my defender and I shall never be defeated.
Trust in God at all times,
Tell him all your troubles, for he is our refuge.”
(Psalm 62: 1-2, 8)
I have posted several times about my layoff, and the aftermath. I have written about the struggles with unemployment assistance, the uncertainty of the job search situation, and the depression that can come with the experience. I do not want to give the impression that everything in my life is doom and gloom. I am not alone in dealing with this new chapter in my life; there is my wife, who has supported me, and when needed, has given me a much needed kick in the ass. There have been family members, from both sides, who have provided help and support in so many ways. There are some members of my parishes, and parish staff, who always inquire on how I am doing, and encourage me onward! My brother deacons continue to be very supportive; some have been an informal networking group for me.
I continue to discover, through the Career Place, and through the Web, new ways to job search; how to get my name and resume out there. At the Career Place, whether in a workshop, or a seminar, you come to realize that you are not the only one going through this. The thing I have to do now is to get my butt in gear. To not just sit and rot, but to get going, to greet each day as an opportunity; not just in job searching, but in those activities that also feed my mind, body, and soul. My job searching will continue to take priority, but also my need to just get out, walk around, get some decent exercise, and enjoy God’s Creation, especially as Spring is really beginning to dawn. This blogging, this writing, is an outlet for my creative and reflective juices. Also taking up the drawing pencil and paintbrush is also another approach I need to look at, and make some time for.
Finally, I need to take care of my soul, to make time for prayer. And not just liturgical prayer, as important as it is, but also for deep personal prayer. I need to entire that type of prayer, which opens me to experience God’s Presence in my life, to experience God’s love and care for me, as I am traveling this new road in my life. In God, I will find my refuge during the tough times; in God, I will recognize the joy and love that is out there in the world. So I am just going “keep on shuffling!”